Mercury has retrograded me.

     I normally love winter, I anticipate the snows, I enjoy the crisp air, being outside. This Winter, I have enjoyed our storms, and cleaning up after them. The last storm we got around 11" of beautiful sparkly snow. The day and a half earlier we got about 3.5". My Husband and daughter at home have been quite sick with a terrible upper respiratory infection that turned into bronchitis. Neither of them have been able to help with these past 2 snows. I handled the first one fine on Monday, I took both of them to the Dr., then we drove through the terrible weather getting prescriptions filled and squeezed in a small lunch while waiting for the prescriptions at the best Diner in town (actually I feel it is the best Diner in the Hudson Valley but that is just me). We got home, I  helped to settle them in to relax then we all were set to enjoy our little snow day. That night, I shoveled our entire driveway , sidewalks, and parking spots with our Wovel (The Wovel ), happily enjoyed that workout then came back inside to settle in for the night.
     The following day was our Grand Daughter's Birthday. I picked up her and her Mom at 6 AM, usually she is brought to our home but my daughter's van was in the shop. Later, we picked up my daughter from work took the Grand Daughter and she out to lunch then we went to pick up the van. They left, I got ready for my afternoon of making jewelry and getting things ready for a show happening this weekend. Phone rings, it is my daughter in hysterics. Van has totally died... has to go back into shop. I take the two of them home (they live a few towns and almost a half hour away). Day#2 basically shot.
     Day #3, wake up to lots of snow. The day goes along, I am cleaning, re organizing, enjoying the day but dreading the shoveling because the Wovel will not work in large snow amounts. (the Wovel is great, you get the job done quicker and with better cardio results in my opinion!) I finally get out there to shovel. Did half the sidewalk. The highway plow comes by and puts the same amount of snow right back into the sidewalk. I begin to feel overwhelmed and severely stressed. I finish the sidewalk and go back in the house. My husband had since gone upstairs to lay down, my daughter the same. The nice together loving woman I usually am has turned into a fire breathing monster. Everything beyond this point begins to unravel. My thoughts enter a dangerous time machine,and I am brought back to other terrible times, feelings, the works. This... is not good. I experience a horrific range of emotion, some of which I had not experienced for many years. I blamed it on this last snow but it is only really terrible unhealthy stress. 
     My daughter tells me that Mercury is in retrograde. This is what is going on. I need to re visit old hurts and patterns and rectify them before this 3 week period is up so my life will be better. What I need, is to get rid of all the unnecessary stress in my life... the unhealthy stuff because if I don't I am going to have a heart attack.
     Today was much better to deal with. I look forward to better days,and promise myself to stop stress in it's tracks. I also pray for the next snows to be kept under 4".